My Raw Unscripted Life

Things that look like paradox
Or feel like contradiction
Is me being scared
Listening with constriction

I wished for love
Reciprocated and free
Unconditional in nature
Giving pleasure in every degree

You’re energy offers warmth
Bringing safety in vulnerability
Yet your words cut like ice
Burying my wish in frigidity

You challenge me to look within
To trust myself
My Feeler
The Divine

But what I see with physical eyes
Causes me to reach
For comfort in the familiar
Even though it brings me breach

The possibility of love is certain
The path forever unknown
My body shutters in doubt and disbelief
Not ready yet to grow

What if I am wrong
What if I get hurt
Maybe I should stay
Buried in the dirt

But
When I run away In fear
You never disappear
I am reaffirmed
My wish for love is near